I’m well aware of how dramatic I am about to sound but here goes anyways…I have absolutely no idea why my parents can not call me. It has been well over a year since the last time they called my phone. And, the last “real” conversation was to tell me what a piece of shit I am. Yes, my mother texts me. She texts me to tell me Happy Birthday and to say she misses me and Merry Christmas. I call and get no return of a call. If I am so missed why does no one care enough to call and hear my voice??? I feel like she texts me this shit just to feel better about not calling me. Texts are so passive in my opinion.
I’m also aware that I should not care as much as I do about the absence of my parents, especially since my parents seem to not care at all. But really, how realistic is that? Something that everyone else around me seems to have, I just don’t. This all ties into me having an even harder time dealing with my inability to have my own family.
I feel like if I can finally have my own family then I won’t focus so much on what I don’t have. I don’t know just a thought.